Very Merry.

Christmas has come and gone.
so fast.
like it always does. 
it always feels like it is gone as fast as it approaches. 
what a Christmas it was.

Another one away from family.
Away from cold. 
away from hearts that I am apart of. 

This year was one of laughter.
(a break down in the kitchen that followed laughter) 
memories.
and fun. 

Baking with my roommates.
opening presents.
watching movies.
listening to Christmas music. 

This year I got to spend Christmas with my cousin.
my other sister.
she flew in on Christmas day.
Words can't describe how full of joy my heart was.
Showing her my life the past 1 1/2 years.
getting to share with her my passion.
bringing life into this world. 
at 4:14 am.
Kersti saw her first birth. 
a sweet baby girl. 

it was a beautiful birth. 
as to me so many are. 
Something about sharing that moment with her.
that memory is tucked deep in my heart. 
along with so many that we already have together.
I love her. 
I love that she came here to the Philippines.

She refreshed my soul. 
it will not be ending soon.

In a few hours I am flying up to Manila to join her and Wipe Every Tear for a week.
a week of loving. 
a week of seeking.
a week of growing.

we will be going into slums.
into bars in the red light district. 

to seek out those girls who need Gods love.
Who need someone to care for them in a deep, pure, genuine way. 

God has given me a desire to combine midwifery in the future with those who have been or are being sex trafficked.
I have seen numerous documentaries.
I have shed endless tears.

I do not know what I will experience.
All I know is that I am praying.
for an open heart.
a vulnerable mind to the Holy Spirit. 
and to love in every way I can.
put aside me feelings and take on those of the girls we will encounter. 

Please pray for us, for our hearts, for those girls who need Gods love encounter. 
for our leaders, safe travels & protection of Holy Angels to surround us. 

I can't wait to share with you when I get back. 
I can't wait for this change of scenery.
a break from birth. 
a renewal & refreshment of spirit and soul. 



Please keep us in your prayers. 
Pray for divine interventions & conversations.
I am so thankful I get to be experiencing this with Kersti. 
to have this week together. 


I am still in need of funds to cover the cost of this trip. If you feel led to financially support me this next week you can go to the "give" tab or click HERE.

Happy New Years.
I pray that God speaks to your heart in what He is going to prepare for you this 2016. 

In Christ's divine & vulnerable love,
Emily Elizabeth

Anticipation of a babe.

I have had beautiful births.
ones that end with a pink screaming baby.
joyous mama && papa.

I have had ones end with disappointment.
a transport to the government hospital.
a broken heart (mine) 
for the loss of bringing a child into this world.
with peace. 
giving the mom confidence in her body.
intervention-less.

last week I had one of each.

both 20 years old. 
both first time mamas.
both complete opposite births. 


miss. E breathed through each contractions with breeze. 
then things got a little harder.
exhaustion set in after laboring all night. 
with contraction coming one after the other.
every 2 minutes. 
finally the urge to push set in. 
her waters broke. 
and things went downhill. 
IV inserted to replace the energy lost. 
laying on her back, squatting, hip swaying, tug-o-war.
after many different positions. 
speaking words of encouragement.
and a cry of help.... from me. 
to God. 
asking to bring this baby down. 
swelling started to form on baby's head.
60 minutes had passed. 
no progress. 
exhaustion overwhelming. 
We decided there was no way we would be able to get this baby out. 
her pelvic outlet was to small for this little ones head. 
and now my heart breaks even more.
her hand wouldn't let go. 
laying on the bed in a place so stale. 
her words...

please stay here with me. don't leave me. stay here. 

stay here. with me miss Emily. please.

Oh Lord, I know your heart broke. 
just like mine did that very moment. 
Oh Lord, be with your daughters.
around this world.
going through birth. 
the pain. 
the exhaustion.
Oh Lord,
give them strength.
whisper words of love, encouragement, trust, & confidence. 
Oh Lord, 
take them in your arms. 
and cover them in your protection.

Kim Cyril. {12.15.2015} 9:15pm
2800 Grams

miss. J came in smiling, talkative & ready for the task ahead. 
her bana ( boyfriend ) left to go to work. 
her mother in law stayed to be by her side. 
hours went by. 
every 2 minutes. every 2 minutes. every 2 minutes. 
the plea for help. 
the power went out. which made the sweat roll. 
the power went on. 
the sweat kept rolling. 
her arm around my neck. hands intertwined. head heavy on my shoulder.
every 2 minutes. 
my sweat and her sweat combined. 
finally her bana shows up.
I think its true when they say some women hold on until whatever they are waiting for appears
He was a saving grace.
coaching her to breathe. 
inhale. exhale. 
together. they made a wonderful team.
the moment their son was placed on her stomach.
tears of joy & excitement began to flow.
me and my assist were trying to hold back our tears.
they were so attentive to their new babe. 
their love was evident. 
their thankfulness flowed from their lips. 

I have been praying that all my patients babies would be brought into this world.
with joy. love. excitement. 
as a gift. 
not all babies are welcomed with tears of joy.
but this little man was. 
and God had that for my heart.
an answered prayer.
to tuck away. 
and remember. 





There are good days and bad days.
good births and bad births. 
but in it all God brings redemption. 
babies are welcomed into this world. 
they come naturally or through interventions. 

This Christmas, this advent.
The birth of our Savior has a whole new meaning to me.
Being so close to birth. 

3 generations of beautiful women.
This sweet little girl was born on Thanksgiving. 

being the person at the other end.
literally. 
I wonder what it was like for Mary & Joseph.
all alone. on that night. 
Mary, exhausted from the long trip. 
from each contraction. 
then pushing with every muscle in her body.
our Savior. 
wrapped in swaddling.
The heavens above. The Angels. 
roared with a joyous celebration. 
The King of Kings. 
has arrived. 

The whole Old Testament. 
leading up to this moment. 
anticipating the arrival. 
year upon year. 
our hearts anticipate the birth of a babe.
born in a manger.
to the virgin.
welcomed with love. 
from those who traveled afar.
from us. 
who He came into this world for. 

" The authority of God made all of creation. But it was the affection of God that made all His children. The three persons of the Trinity - Father God, Jesus Christ, and Holy Spirit - gathered close together to imagine YOU. And God in three persons, uncontainable affection, knelt down and kissed warm life into you with the breath of His love." Anne Voskamp

God brings His redemption in many ways. 
He loves you. 
He loves His children.
He came into this world the same way we all did. 

I pray that your heart is being prepared for His birth. 
for this little babe to be born. 
for His love. 
& desires for your life. 

Have a Merry Christmas.
Full of joy & laughter. 
with those loved ones who will surround you this season. 
In Christ's Love, 
Emily Elizabeth

You face.

God knows how to place people in my life that strengthen my faith. 
strengthen my trust in Him.
and put me in those "awe" states of His hearts love for me. 

These next words are from a patient of mine.
she said I could share them with you. 
She was my first baby I helped into this world 
when I got back from break in July. 
it was an amazing birth. 
Her and her husband are both Christian.
Both have beautiful hearts. 
the Holy Spirit's presence was felt. 
it was a captivating memory.


this is what she wrote me the other week...

Psalm Athena.
Born 8.3.2015 @ 11:51pm
2750 grams

" You know why my heart is so close of you because before I come to the mercy at that night I have a dream that your face I see in my dream and the holy spirit tell me, that I find that face coz he help you to push the baby.and it well be happened. So bless. in the morning when I come in mercy I try to find your face. I feel worry because I cannot see your face.but in the night I'm so shock when I saw your face.and then the holy spirit tell me that women will help you to to push the baby girl. God is so real. That's why I tell my self that Jesus call you for that mission.that's I love you very well. "

"Yah.and you why God show me cause I don't expect psalm come to me.and every time I go in mercy I feel struggle.and every word of God.I heard in mercy I feel strong.cause I don't expect that my baby psalm come in my life.maybe if I see you there's a lot of story I share with during my pregnancy. You know when my baby is 1month inside I dream that God tell me she is a girl.and after 2month inside of my tommy God tell me that I can go in the mercy. huhuhuhu there a lot of story this baby girl.I excited to see you a lot of story I had."

This made my heart burst. and my faith grow deeper. 
I have never had someone express anything like this to me before.
I know God has placed people in my life when I have needed them.
but I have never experienced being placed in someones life for a special moment when they needed me, especially to help bring new life into this world. 
That God had shown my face to someone I have never met. 

Psalm. 4 months old.

Oh Lord you are greater than I can imagine.
Your love flows deeper then I will ever know.
Your plans never disappoint.
Thank you for always romancing my heart.
Surprising me with special gifts daily. 

You never know when someone will need you. 
or you need them.









Always look for what God has for you in the little tasks. and big tasks. 
especially this Christmas season.
as we eagerly await the birth of His son.
who came as a baby.
precious and perfect. 
for us. 

In Christ's Love
Emily Elizabeth