The good person vs the bad person on your shoulder.
The thoughts that flood your mind every second.
The battle that goes on in your head.
Your heart.
Your soul.
God's Mercy seems to seep into those wounds.
Always in the perfect moment.
When you need it most.
To be reminded of why He sent Jesus.
& Holy Spirit.
His coverings.
Over our shame.
Our imperfection.
Our struggling desire to do things right.
(( I am always reminded by those bracelets with those 4 letters...
W.W.J.D )) maybe we need to be asking ourselves that more often.
What would Jesus do?
We need our cornerstone.
Our foundation daily needs to be upon His word.
His love.
His Forgivness.
His grace.
Our eyes fixed upon Him.
Hands reaching out for His.
Being instep with each of His.
Lord,
Am I in the center of Your will?
Today I got to speak about my life overseas.
To a class of 2nd graders.
Their minds and hearts so eager.
Telling them about the 2 islands God brought me to.
The babies I got to help bring into the world.
And how God radically changed my life.
Asking me to take a step of faith.
In doing something that is beyond my capabilities.
My desires.
I would never have had the experiences in my heart.
If I didn't say yes that one morning in Haiti.
Singing the familiar words,
"Take me deeper then my feet could ever wander..."
Yeah, midwifery is definitely that for me.
Yet, that has led to so many other roads, doors & responses.
So many challenges I have faced,
Identity stretched.
Faith grown.
Desires abandoned and rediscovered.
Surrender of life & expectations.
Plenty of painful disappointments.
But a beautiful picture of redemption
That my heart has experienced.
Reading Hosea,
So fitting for this season I find myself standing in.
While life is going on all around me.
God asking me to do something that isn't easy.
But is right.
Just like Hosea was asked to love Gomer,
Even though her love was not his.
The reflection of Gods love for us.
Even though our love might not always be given to Him.
He pursues us.
Chases after us.
Desires to make us new.
&& whole.
I hear His whisper at night.
Trust me Daughter.
For what you are doing now may not be easy.
I know your heart is breaking.
Because I put that desire in it.
I will hold steadfast to His promises.
That this struggle.
This surrender.
Will be turned into a blessing in the future.
Again,
I am reminded that God is so much bigger than I will ever be.
That what I want is so miniscul compared to what He wants for me.
My heart.
My life.
My soul.
Keep saying yes,
Let that child like faith take over.
Be rooted in His promises.
Cause He will surprise you when you least expect Him to.
"God never said the right thing would be the easy thing"
