Being a feeler.

There are those who feel what others are feeling. 

And those who don't.

Well I am a feeler. 

And I feel so much of all those around me.

Who I care for.

Emotions being felt. 

Seasons of life. 

Joy and sadness. 

When a mama is in labor.

I decide I need to feel what she is feeling.

I have my very own "labor" 

Some like to call them "sympathy pains" 

I like to say they are just helping me connect.

Because I have never experienced labor.

So this is my own way. 

Sometimes this life I am venturing into is hard.

To be apart of such a vulnerable time.

A joyful time. 

Or a time of confusion and pain. 

Some can disconnect. 

I can not.

Physically, emotionally and mentally. 

My heart is teathered to all my mamas. 

Here in the states.

In the Philippines.

In the world. 

Seeing what so many mamas go through. 

It either causes my heart so much pain.

Or explode with joy. 

It's hard.

It's frustrating at some times.

And many times I find myself asking God why? 

Yelling at Him.

Not understanding His heart. 

But trusting that He has the best for His children. 

His daughters. 

I am thankful that God allows this for me. 

Allowing me to become so intertwined through midwifery.

Into His family. 

This body.

With my mamas.

Their families. 

Their lives. 

What beautiful stories I get to store away in my heart.

Relationships I have for the rest of my life.

Experiences and moments to share. 

Some days I want to cry. 

Some days I want to just sit and scream. 

Some days I want to hold the sweet moms that God entrusts into my care. 

Let them cry. 

And pour prayers over their life.

And the little one they hold in their bellies. 

In the end.

That's all I can do.

Pray.

Trust. 

And find peace in knowing God has His own 

P.E.R.F.E.C.T. L.O.V.E

Covering each mom. 

What comfort that is.

What a { prayer warrior } I have become.

And I would have it no other way. 

Cause in the end.

I can only do so much. 

And God can do IT ALL. 

Humility.

Sitting back. 

Biting your tongue. 

Shutting your mouth.

Biting the bullet. 

Submission. 

Oh submission. 

Why is it so hard sometimes. 

To be under someone

 Because 

We always will be in this life. 

Someone will always one up us. 

Be faster, smarter, stronger, wealthier, more successful. 

Let's face it. 

It sucks. 

Especially when there are things you do know. 

But you just have to bite your tongue. 

Allow those above you to stay above. 

And embrace humility in ways so vulnerable. 

It comes with growth.

And huge amounts of grace.

For others.

And yourself.

To be reminded that God has you in this place for a reason.

This season. 

He wants to use it for your future in some way. 

Which we are always so blind to His moving. 

Until we give up.

Let go.

And surrender our selfish ways.

How beautiful it is to know.

There is grace abounding in ways unimaginable.

God has such perfection in loving His children.

And how refreshing it is to know.

He is pruning and preparing.

And one day.

We each will be placed in a position where submission will only be.

TO HIM.

Which when ya think about it, 

We should be in complete surrender to Him.

Have an eagerness to submit to Him.

Because He only ever has good for us.

Love for us.

Beautiful scenes for us on this journey. 

Rest stops.

Several Storms. 

But always with growth.

Accomplishments. 

And All of it

To be pointed back to Him.

To Him given the glory that He will always deserve. 

That our hearts should crave to give. 

But submission. 

Can be negative.

Full of crappiness and so unfair.

There is an ease of being taken advantage of.

By those whose hearts are not pure.

Life is a selfish one of gain. 

Driven by sin. 

Because satan has come to steal, kill and destroy.

And he is doing it all around us. 

And that is so so so wrong. 

Not how God wants us grow in life. 

Or live life. 

Oh my heart for girls and women who get taken advantage of. 

All because men think they deserve all the submission.

The control over their lives. 

Because we are supposed to submit. 

It's what the Bible says.

Yes, it does and I love how the Message proclaims it. 

22-24 Wives, understand and support your husbands in ways that show your support for Christ. The husband provides leadership to his wife the way Christ does to his church, not by domineering but by cherishing. So just as the church submits to Christ as he exercises such leadership, wives should likewise submit to their husbands.

Oh what a beautiful word.

Cherishing

Yes let's cherish each moment God gives us. 

To learn to submit in the right way. 

Under those who we look up to,

Who love our hearts.

Who God has put in our lives for whatever season we are in.

And whatever He so desires for us to learn from those around us. 

Realign our hearts to be thankful.

That God gives us people to guide us, 

Prophesy over us. 

Speak life and truth to us. 

To soak up all God has for us through those He uses. 

Let's learn to cherish each moment of submission. 

To find the lessons,

Growth, 

Cherish having people cover your heart in love. 

In prayers.

Cherish each other and the influence,

We can have in each others lives.

If we allow God to move through us. 

Use us. 

We will be able to do things we never thought we could. 

Move mountains. 

Overcome all adversity. 

And negativity that has consumed our lives. 

Submission. 

Let's do it the right way. 

Because so much of the world,

Has it all wrong. 

Cherish. 

Let's cherish each other wholeheartedly. 

In Christ's Love

Emily Elizabeth

The Circle. The dwell. The Promise.

This last weekend I got to gather with my sisters in Christ.

Over 9,000. 

Singing praises. 

Being encouraged.

Healing. 

And being pursued in such an intimate way by Christ.

His presence was felt. 

And welcomed.

This season of my life.

I am happy. 

At peace. 

My schedule is full & the demands from others are great.

But my heart is in a place of rest.

Trust.

Patience.

Vulnerability. 

And the community. Oh the community.

So so good. 

Being filled is such a new feeling and one so welcomed. 

This season I am learning to rest in what is put before me. 

To not want more or less. 

But to continue to work towards the desire that God has for my life.

Becoming a midwife. 

A promise He has made with me. 

That if I work hard now, it will happen. 

I am circling His promises. 

One of marriage & family. 

One of community. 

One of working with His daughters who have been rescued from the sex trade. 

My heart will continue to pursue them with steadfast patience. 

It will happen. In His perfect timing. 

Persistence is key in the circling His promises. 

Puting energy into what is important in His sight. 

And surrendering what is not right now. In this very moment. 

Dwelling in His presence. 

Setting time to lay down everything at His feet. 

Coming to Him in times of stress, stretching & blow ups. 

Meeting Him. 

Falling in love with His perfection. 

Grace, Mercy, Gentelness, Plans, Forgivness, Patience, 

Oh and His beautiful creations. 

The sunsets He creates for my heart. 

The blossoms of flowers that fill the fields so bright with color. 

The strength and provisions He shows over birth of a new life. I can go on and on of how He romances me, as I am sure He romances you all in such beautiful ways. 

To Dwell in Hebrew is  > To sit. To remain. To be married. <

Oh let Him pursue you. 

Let Him sit with you as He so desires. To Get a moment to speak to your heart in this busy life. 

I promise you WILL desire to sit longer and longer in His presence.

Remain attached to His vine.

He will produce so much more in you then you could ever imagine

Be married to Him. He is perfect in every way. 

The husband every woman deserves. 

He is right there holding out His hand. 

Yet sometimes we are so blinded by the things of this world to remember that He is

> EVER PRESENT <

Alway whispering exactly what you need to hear. 

There are so many things I want to do right now. 

It's hard to be here and not out in this world.

But I am learning to focus my gaze on what is before me.

Here.

In Texas. 

And to be grateful for all I am doing right now.

The preparations He desires for my heart and hands. 

And to know He continues to give me visions of my future. 

The future He has created me for. 

Oh I could sing praises for hours and hours.

Giving all glory. 

Tears flowing.

Heart pounding. 

Arms wide open. 

Vulnerability. 

Passion. 

My life is one I never imagined. 

Yet I couldn't imagine anything different. 

And I can't wait for what is planned.

Continue to dwell. 

Circle His promises.

Not your problems.

Cause in that He will bring new freedom. 

Healing. Growth. && restoration. 

Fall madly, deeply in love with our Savior. 

You are living life because of Him. 

We are His precious daughters.

Revel in that. Embrace who you are in Him. And run with grace to those sisters around you. 

In Christ's Love

Emily Elizabeth