Never Easy but Ready.

These words were sung together at one of my best friends wedding a few weeks ago. All together. In worship. A beautiful communion. A special moment. A complete surrender.

Let us become more aware 

of Your presence

Let us experience the glory 

of Your goodness

These last two months have FLOWN by. As I didn't want to admit they would when flying stateside in June.

I have been beyond blessed this summer. Sharing memories with those who I hold close to my heart. Laughing uncontrollably with my niece, nephews and girls in MN. Conversations that made me dig deep in my heart. Adventures full of beauty and amazing awe in how the Lord blesses us with nature. Comfort of growing with a great community. Prayers from dear friends that resulted in streams of tears. 

ALL OF THIS IS COMING WITH ME TO THE PHILIPPINES.

for those times of weakness. When I want to pack up, come home and snuggle up in my moms arms. 

In the stressful moments where I don't think I will ever make it to the next day. 

The several tears I know that I will shed, whether tears of joy, sadness or just because God is stirring something up in my heart. 

Right now I just want to shout praises to God of how much 

I LOVE MY LIFE. 

I love how far I have come. How much I have learned. Changed. Explored. Blossomed. Refined. Let go. Explored. Lived. 

All because I have been redeemed. 

Thinking about a "normal life" I chuckled cause mine is everything BUT normal. 

I am all over the place. and I wouldn't want it any other way. 

Yes I dream of meeting a man who not only loves me but is so in love with Jesus. Having babies of my own that I don't have to give back. Having a home to clean up just to become messy again 5 minutes later. Cooking up endless meals of yumminess & always having my community of family walking in my doors to share them with. 

I pray that will come. those are tenacious desires of my heart. But right now settling down seems.... scary and stagnant & not right for my life at this moment. 

THIS HEART YEARNS FOR SO MUCH MORE ADVENTURE. 

to seek out cultures and learn. the beauty that each country has to offer. relationships. wrapping myself up in the everyday life of how people live in hidden villages. going to every edge of fear. 

and discovering God in every person.  

As I prepare for another move. overseas. My heart anticipates what I will see. What I will learn & what I will experience. 

I am ready. SO ready to be out of limbo. To be moving forward towards the calling God has put on my life. Actively pursuing knowledge. Striving to be a midwife of trust, comfort & infinite support. 

I am eager to begin living in a community that God has so perfectly pieced together. living life with future midwives and the people of the Philippines. Going through the up's and down's together. Discovering this new country side by side. Lifting one up in God's infinite love when it feels absent. Seeking out new desires together . Growing together in Gods promises. 

two and a half years is a long time. 

but so perfect when thinking about pursuing deep relationships that will last a lifetime. 

August 17th I will leave LAX en route to Davao City, Philippines.

Can I ask for prayers of comfort, safety, & peace. 

Saying goodbye to my sister yesterday was a whole new kind of hard. A hurting in my heart in realization that I have NO CLUE the next time I will see her in person. As hard as its going to be I feel as if its a confirmation that what I am doing is right and it is exactly what God wants for me.  

No goodbyes have ever been this hard. Not saying everything I have done was wrong but just knowing that THIS. Me going back to school in another country to be equipped to be a midwife is exactly what God has planned for me and I have finally found what it means to let go and let God. To follow Him with my whole heart. 

" In ALL your ways acknowledge HIM, and He will make your paths straight." Proverbs 3:6

I love this life that God leads me in. I love the people He has put in my life now and am excited for those I will cross paths with in the future. I love all my memories. experiences that I can pinpoint growth in my life. I love living for God. For striving to seek Him out in the small things. Giving Him thanks in every situation & for every beautiful thing He produces in my life. Knowing that when I mess up that He is right there to wipe it clean and shower me with His loving comfort. 

I love my life. 

I love living this life for my Savior. 

God let Your fire

Burn in my soul

Come and take over

All my control

Burn in my spirit

Burn in my soul, Oh God

Burn in me

Let your spirit

Come and fill me

Let my heart come fully alive

Let your presence overwhelm me

Let your glory come alive

Let it come

Let it come

Father, give me a boldness that is so apparent to those around me.  

Prayer Requests:

- Safe travels for these next few weeks before I land in Davao City

- Sweet moments with my family & friends while I am in Dallas and San Diego

- Peace & comfort in the Goodbyes that I am dreading

- Eager mind for learning & soaking up every bit of knowledge I learn

- Community & bond with the other girls I will be living life with & the Filipino women we will be ministering to. 

Needs:

- $800 for my Missionary Visa fees when I get to the Philippines

- Individuals or Families to partner monthly in support of my life not only as a student in Davao but as a missionary midwife 

(In need of $200-300 monthly in addition with my current supporters) 

- iPhone 4s or newer. Needs to have a SIM card slot & unlocked would be nice!
- Prayers, prayers & more prayers

** If you would like to donate a one time gift or join in supporting me monthly for my time in the Philippines you can give by clicking THIS button and follow the steps. 

I am still under " Schoneman, Emily HAITI" 

                   - If you would like to specifically give to my Missionary Visa fund 

                              Please let me know by emailing me at  schoneman.eemily@gmail.com

I will have an address where I am living too so anyone who wants to be old fashioned and do snail mail I WOULD LOVE IT : ) nothing like opening up a hand written letter!

Thank you for everything. For all of you who keep up with my blogs, life, adventures & prayers. I pray that God will move in you & bring you countless blessings. I wouldn't be where I am today without your love & support. I love knowing I have so many people to share my life with. 

In Christ's Love

Emily Elizabeth